No, I believe they got that all wrong. Miserable people like myself can be miserable to be around. But, anyone who truly knows what it feels like to be miserable would never wish such on anyone they love. I hate how my misery affects all those around me. It’s not something I can totally control, but it does affect my family and friends.
Today has been another miserable day. God has still done great things but I’m just as miserable now as when my day got started. Nerve pain is crawling through my skin and has been all day. I have no answer for it. All I can do once again is pray my meds knock me totally out. Because it’s only when I’m not awake that I’m not miserable.
It would be impossible for me to hide my misery from others. Especially when that misery is flowing through my veins. I would love to go to a hospital and just be hooked up to a nonstop pain pump for the week. Sadly, I know my return home would only be met with misery. I want so bad to be a better husband, dad, son, brother, friend and pastor. But, miserable island is where I’m living at the moment while still rejoicing over all God is doing despite my condition.
Father God, I am sincerely thankful for every good gift You have given me. I’m even thankful for my trials that I know You are using daily. Yes, I’m miserable physically and in need of desperate relief. But, I thank you for the peace and strength You give me to just make it through another day.
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”