As I write this, I’m fighting the Benadryl within me. Not only has it made me sleepy, but I’ve not been getting proper rest for some time. I’ve decided that things must change. There is nothing more spiritual I can do at this time than just rest. I don’t need counseling, I’m not stressed about anything, and I’ve made peace with a God who loves me unconditionally. In order for me to get the rest I need, I’ve had to change some things in my life.
One, I set clearer boundaries. As a pastor, I could work around the clock and never feel on top of things. Instead of trying to conquer the world, I’ve decided to draw some very clear lines in the sand. I now have certain no work zones, times I shut things off, and I’ve even set myself a bed time that will allow me to get in bed a reasonable time.
Two, I removed obvious distractions. Starting at 7p.m. each night my smart phone is disabled from receiving emails, facebook messages, and other alerts that would trigger a response from me. Sure, if a true emergency calls I will be ready. But, I can’t spend every waking moment at everyone’s beckon call. If I continue to work 24/7 I won’t have much left to give anyone. Especially my family, who I dearly love and plan to always make priority.
Thirdly, I began to create new habits. Time has proven that it takes time for a new habit to replace the old ones that have been such a part of you. I’m not trying to be perfect, but I plan to approach each day a little better than before. This will require a new plan, a new schedule, and a new perspective each day as I move forward.
I’m not quite forty, yet my body has felt twice that age at times. I can learn all there is to learn. I can do all there is to do. But, if I don’t take care of myself and get proper rest I won’t be doing much of anything for long. With that said, I’m tucking myself in the bed early so I can fully enjoy and be ready for tomorrow.
“Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28